Prayers

What would you do if most of your dreams that you've prayed for in the past started coming true? Would you start playing that G-D would answer the rest or would you ask G-D to rethink answering those prayers and move on to the more recent one...

- F

late-night

well it's late night or early morning..any-who my mind is swimming in pools of thought, thoughts that I'm questioning...thoughts that are troubling me..some days i wish i would washing my head out with bleach.. late night thought are always dangerous for me to think. they always disturb me..late-nights or early mornings are when i get really profound thats then my thoughts are so profound that i have to shake my head like a made man..like if i shake my head enough the thought just might evaporate...but they don't. they just seattle and start seeping in to my head even more...and sleeping doesn't help when i sleep when i have profound that i will most likely have a nightmare..so sleeping is no good! and it does no good staying up late because i have to go to Shul in he morning. it take me awhile to get out of bed..sorry for not typing this correctly i know i have a bunch of run on sentences but thats the way they are coming at me..so i will take my chances with sleep and see what evil things attack me in my nightmares. In GOD I Trust, with GOD all things are posable Shalom, ~Fenda ...please don't be freighted or worried.. remember it's just thoughts of mine.

Everything Lifehouse

How come?..

How come people try to see other people in good lighting? why is when you know someone who you love lets you down over and over and over again? and it hurts you. but you keep letting yourself trust them? what is the point, you you just hope that the next time they will notice and care? so that why you put yourself out there for them?

I don't mind seeing people in dirty puddle water, at least i know who or what they really are. i don't let them rest there burdens on me. i've heard a very smart lady say that when you let people tell you their dirt or bad secrets. All they're doing is passing there burden on you, so they can feel free. and thats not always a good thing.

train of thought ended..

p.s. this is just a thought i'm not depressed or anything.

My Dad

My Dad, is a Woo! translated as he's a wonderful man! he filled out my financial aid paper with me for College, because i didn't want to do it by myself, and because i wasn't sure how do to it, and because i really didn't want to mess up!

I Love you forever and always daddy!

Love messages or whatever they are!

Oct 8th from Barnrd Ngino:

Barnrd Ngino: am lost ;are you the one am looking for

Me: What? i don't understand.

Barnrd Ngino: am in kenya and i like your smile babie

Me: Creepy! please leave me alone.

June 25th

from Issa Ba:

Issa Ba: miss cmt tu va nanga def, trankil. moi c issa j sui origine senegalais mé j vie a paris j vien de visité té foto frenchement son tro tro béll a regardé jarive mm pa arété d regardé telement k c jolie a voir.apar sa j v t demandé si ca t derange pa d fér connaissance avc toi.

Me: I am sorry but i do not speak french. so i can not understand what your saying. do you speak english?

Issa Ba: n moi j n parle pa englais j parle francais dsl alor

August 3 What he put in the Subject Box "

If luv is a crime then i'm willing to be hunted"

Abu Kamara:Hi Fenda

would u mind if i ask u a question?

Me: Yeah go ahead.

Abu Kamara: Hi

since when i saw your face i must confess thst ur are the most beautiful girl i have ever met

Me: umm, you haven't met me. bye...and please stop.

Abu Kamara:Hi

but i do believe that we'll meet some day
To crown it all i just want to tell u that i have u in mind

what would you do?

What do you do when the foundation you've stood on for years Vanishes?..When your left alone..? and the people you called your friends want nothing to do with you? and the people who talk to you want things from you, what do you then?...do you get back up, brush yourself off, and move on?